I managed to sleep 4 hours last night, and yet I got up and went to church this morning. I don't know, I've been like in a coma all day long. I tried designing that boring bench and the notice board (I'm running a bit late with the plans, as you see) but I couldn't start doing anything. I tried to convince myself that it's ok because I forgot my notes at A's yesterday (plus my USB stick) and all my notes and sketches are there. Plus I don't have any good paper to draw on. I gave my last good paper (you know, that sort of thick paper that you draw architectural stuff on) to one girl last week because she had forgotten to buy her own, and then this week she gave me back a crappy paper that isn't half as thick as the one I gave her, and if I make mistakes when I draw the final version with a flowmaster pen (and I have to use a razor blade to scratch away the lines that I drew wrong because we're not allowed to use correction fluid) the paper won't look half as good after the scratching as the better paper that I had. Plus the paper the girl gave me is wrinkled in some places. And as it's Sunday, I can't go and buy that good sort of paper. So.. this is the reason why I didn't manage to do anything useful today - this and the fact that I slept only 4h.

I spent all day yesterday at Ana's with Marina (not my sister) and Vedrana, and I can't remember when I would've laughed that much, my cheeks were actually hurting because of all the laughing. We spent the first 3 hours gossiping (again) and then started studying all those cones and branches that we have to learn to recognize by Wednesday. I'm sure I'll recognize the easiest ones (Pseudotsuga menziesii - douglas-fir, Cedrus sp. - cedar, Tsuga canadensis -Canadian hemlock, Taxus baccata - yew, and Pinus strobus - Eastern white pine) but there's a hell of a pile of the difficult cones and branches that I'll never learn. I can't believe Wikipedia doesn't have a photo of cedar's cones - they're probably the greatest thing ever. They're hard as rock, you can't break them even with a hammer, and the surface is smooth like.. I don't know, it looks really weird. And they grow up-right on the branches! My affection to these cones has already lead to many a funny joke about their resemblance to the one thing that I'm sure we all know, so please, don't even think about it. I can't help it if I like these cones the most.

I still haven't gotten rid of the syrupy pop song phase that I talked about earlier. I don't know, maybe it's because of my need to feel close to someone. Listening to Enrique Iglesias (oh, I love 'Hero') doesn't help at all, though. In fact, it might make me feel even worse because it just reminds me of what I can't have. It makes me want to hit my head to the wall. You know, sometimes I still feel like I was emotionally on the same level as I was when I was 15. I suppose it's not good.

Btw, I bought my plane ticket to Finland! Actually mum bought it but still, that makes me feel so so happy that I can't really describe it. I can't wait for New Year's Eve which should be a lot of fun, though I'm not sure how sick I'll be because I haven't drank any alcohol in almost 4 months now, and I'm afraid my liver has gotten too used to this light phase. I still remember the hangover from hell that I had after my brother's friend's birthday party in last March - I haven't felt that sick ever before or after that, either. I basically lied very very still on my bed till late afternoon, ordered a pizza with my brother, ate some of it and went to sleep again. It took me three days to get completely over it. But I guess I could handle it if I had a really good time. Maybe? I'm not so sure. Right now I have more important things to think of, like my budget. I need to buy my own computer next month and if I get all the supports (for paying the rent) from Finland that I haven't gotten yet, I'll get around 1000 euros in December. I need to buy some clothes and all that sort of stuff, and I have no idea what a good computer is like. My only wish is that it has a flat screen and it'd be nice if it was average quality, so that it won't break immediately even because of my bad karma with computers. I have to ask someone to help me with this "computer mission". I'm tired of using my brother's computer, and when he and my older brother move away, I'll be left with nothing but my mobile, and surfing on the internet with my mobile is KINDA expensive. Fun but expensive. Advisable to do during extremely boring lectures at the uni but expensive. It's better to invest on a real computer so that I can use it for my studies, too.