This is going to be a long entry.

My shopping ban for November went all down the toilet yesterday when I forgot that money is there to be saved for a bad day - I bought a new nailpolish (lovely, sort of ivory/champagne, matte, very adult) and a HUGE, I mean humongous (about the size of an A2) Taschen wall calendar for next year. It has 12 pictures of Raphael's paintings, and it's going to look amazing on my flat-to-be's wall - once the flat is ready and furnished and wall (yes, only one wall) painted and so on. I think I might be becoming an adult, what with all these matte and classy coloured nailpolishes and Raphael wall calendars and all that jazz. Though I think the tongue piercing (and tattoo, but I'm not (yet) completely serious about that one) might bring me back to level 1 when it comes to "adultness" and maturity. Hehe.

Me and Marina have been talking about piercings so many times, though she wants her belly button pierced. Something pretty and dangling, that's what she wants. And maybe a second hole in her ear, that'd be cool. I might to do that too. Anyway, Marina's scared and she wants me to come with her, and she had the idea of us getting the piercings at the same time. It's kinda problematic because my dad will be in Finland at the same time and a belly button piercing is way easier to hide than a tongue piercing, assuming that I won't be speaking or eating properly for a week. And I know what you're saying, I'm 20 and shouldn't care about my dad, but even if I'm 20 I don't want to be disowned by my dad quite yet. And he will do it. Remember what he said about dying hair, piercings, tattoos and how they'll lead to me going to jail? Uh, yeah. Well, that's my dad.. Very conservative. Very very conservative.

I'm still not sure what to do. A said she can't imagine me with a tongue piercing because she's always thought that "it's something that only junkies do". Err, okay. Clearly I don't share her opinion. And she said that I'm so "lady-like" that she'd never thought I'd want to get my tongue pierced. Me, lady-like? Think again! Though I did plan getting a fake diamond stud. I mean, if I'm going to get something stabbed through my tongue, it'd better look pretty. Makes sense, right?

I googled if 'belly button piercing' is the correct way to write it and my brother (one of them, anyway) had left the settings so that it searches only sites that are in Serbian. I almost burst out laughing when I saw some forum where someone had said "Idiot, didn't I tell you not to do the belly button piercing in your own garage?" I'm so going to a professional.

Enough ranting about piercings. I've done something smart too lately, believe it or not. I've started taking care of my diet and the way I eat and what I eat. For example, I've stopped using margarine, and I'm not eating even the little cheese that I used to eat. Average cheeses here have about 45% fat, the ones with 20% are considered to be low-fat - they taste bad so I'd rather be without cheese than eat the so-called low-fat variations. Plus I don't eat white bread anymore, and I'm this close to not drinking any sodas, even the light ones. AND I eat breakfast. No need to say it but I'm saying it anyway - my metabolism is way better than it used to be! I've lost about 2,5 kilos this week. And that's a lot!

God, I'm such an idiot. I just spent a month trying to eat as little as possible, and I ended up losing.. well, not much. Not much at all. Apparently my body got mad at me and decided to store everything that I ate in case it wouldn't be fed in a long time. And I know that's what happens when you eat way too little, but when you're stupid like me.. Well, what can I say. I'm desperate. Or was. Or am? I guess I still am. Sometimes when I'm really stressed out, my brain starts malfunctioning and I'm not able to think reasonably. Maybe that's why most of the time I felt like my brain was wrapped in some sort of a fog.. Hmm. Remember to eat regularly.

I also went Christmas shopping yesterday! I'm having trouble with finding presents for some people. luckily I bought Viljas b-day + Christmas present combination already in last April so I don't have to worry about that one. My own wishes are very simple this year - all I need is..

- socks (lots of them, preferably from H&M, and WITHOUT any prints)
- a ceramic blowdryer
- a pedometer/step counter
- good chick lit books
- stuff that I can use when decorating my flat-to-be (preferably light-weight so I can take them with me from Helsinki to Belgrade)
- a hot guy with a rocking smile

That's all what I need, really.