Uh oh. I think my life is too event-free at the moment. I almost got drunk with my second cousins last night, and I sure as hell didn't intend to get drunk with them. It's just that.. if someone offers me a free vodka-juice, will I say no? NO. Thank God I had some brains left in this empty thing on my shoulders, so I said no thanks when I started feeling too stupid, i.e. when I laughed at everything they said (oh god) and was about to talk way too much about things that I don't want to talk with all my male cousins (ever). It's a bit sad that I get on so well with guys. Girls are sometimes too competitive for my taste, it's like you constantly have to be on guard and make sure you're not stepping on anyone's toes. With guys it's usually so much more laid-back and.. I don't know. Easier. Unless you're interested in the guy, then it's a whole different thing (for me, at least). Good thing I'm not interested in my cousins. Eww.. The whole idea is just eurgh.

I find my relationship with alcohol a bit worrying sometimes. I don't drink often*, god no, but it's just that everytime I do, it's like I have to force myself not to cross the limit between "a few casual drinks with friends" and "getting wasted as hell". Maybe it's because I'm a bit reserved at times and alcohol helps me relax.. and I'm a weak person. Though I did say no to cake last night! Man, I'm so proud of myself. Even my maths instructor told me I've lost weight, though I'm not sure if she meant it as a good thing or a bad thing. I decided to take it as a compliment though. Oh, I live for that kind of moments!

It's started snowing again and it doesn't seem to be stopping anytime soon. Sure, it's looks pretty but it's so effing cold in this apartment and none of my shoes are really meant for snowy winters. The window in my "room" (you can hardly call a space without a door a 'room') still can't be closed properly so at night it's freezing cold. It's starting to feel like even my three blankets aren't enough.. I get cold so easily, probably because of bad blood circulation, and this isn't helping. I actually feel a bit sick, but I don't have time to be sick right now. Too much going on at uni, I'm just trying to survive next week's shit so that I can travel to Helsinki on next Sunday.

That reminds me - 8 more days to go! It'll be good to be in Helsinki for a while, though I know I have to write 3 seminar works while being there. Maybe I can use the holidays for that, when everyone's busy with their families and that sort of thing. I have to start planning what clothes to take with me, though I don't even know what to wear on New Year's eve! Everything depends on where we're going, or if we're staying at someone's place instead of going out. If it's a party party I'll have to take my black dress with me, but if it's not, I'll wear something "casual". I need to know exactly what to pack because I'm not taking more than one suitcase with me this time.

*4 times here in Belgrade this year and maybe, umm.. 8 times in Helsinki during July? All I can say is that June's exams stressed the hell out of me. I had my reasons to get a bit more relaxed in July.

Something to listen to:
R. Kelly - The World's Greatest

(oh and it turned out that my brother's friend didn't know that I was his friend's little sister)