I have no idea what's going on.. J's friend has started sending me messages via Facebook, one of which I don't entirely understand. I mean, he knows that I had something going on with J and I know that the two of them got into a fight (I think it was just a verbal one) because of me and for a while they didn't speak with each other, because this friend of J's would've wanted, err.. something more with me, I guess. Which is weird because I'm only 20 and he's like.. well, OLDER. A lot older. It's not like he'd be a horrible person because he's not, we actually had a lot in common and we could be good friends. Only I don't see why a man of his age would like to be just friends with a girl of my age. I think he probably only wants sex (he made it very clear to me on that fatal Thursday), while I'd like to be just friends with him. And now he's sending me these messages, thanking me for something (no idea for what), and saying that he can't promise to wait for me but he'll try.. I mean, wtf? Wait for me? Jesus. Just when I thought I understood what goes on in the enemy's mind.

I won't go into great details about the forthcoming exams, I really don't want to to think about them right now.

Now that my dad's away we no more have dinner waiting for us and I'm too used NOT to cook. I actually cooked for the first time in almost 5 months a couple of days ago, it felt weird. I didn't do anything challenging though, just spaghetti ad ready-made vegatarian sauce with some minced meat (my nicer brother refuses to eat vegetarian stuff). Yesterday we ordered pizza (vegetarian, naturally) but I was able to eat only three eights of it, which was good. Pizza's so unhealthy and I'm trying to keep my figure here (even A noticed I've lost weight). I wonder if there's anything edible in the fridge.. Probably not, if you don't count diet coke, eggs and ready-made soups. It's weird how there's always at least those three things in our fridge! I don't get the eggs though, it's not as if we use them that much. Maybe that's why they're there.. the same eggs week after week. Haha, okay, now I'm just being stupid and delirious from the lack of food. I'm off to forage the fridge.