I was checking some random people's pages on Facebook when I came across this one picture that made me laugh, until I realized that the picture was about me.

I stopped laughing pretty quick.

I just read Maria's newest entry (yes, this is connected with this entry's theme), she always writes so well. This time was no exception. And I got mentioned! "And although it seemed that my dear Serbian friend went crazy for a while, I think she'll be fine." Yes, that's me! Uh, and I think she's referring to what happened between me and J and.. uh, his friend, at his friend's place on the Fatal Thursday about 3 weeks ago. You know, I'm not proud of myself. I was under the influence of vast amounts of alcohol AND I hadn't eaten much that day. And you know how I can be so naive even when I'm sober, imagine what I'm like when I'm drunk! "We'll go to my place just to have some coffee and then I'll give you a ride home." Yeah, right! But I learned my lesson. I did, really. I mean, it was interesting as an experience and, err.. I learned new things that might, umm, be handy in the future. But that's about it. I'm not going to do it again. Seriously. It's so overrated anyways.

Btw, thanks Maria for the CV idea!

Today I talked with my mum about returning to Finland. It was so weird because I hadn't planned mentioning it to my parents in a couple of months, and I guess I'm NOT going to mention it to my dad yet, because you know what he can be like. But mum's different. She understands me most of the time and sometimes she's so easy to talk to, like today. The words just started flowing and.. I told her how bad I feel here and how it's not what I expected to be and how I still haven't fitted in. And imagine my both brothers listening right next to me! Can't believe I had the guts to talk about it while they were here. But I did. Mum said that if I want to return to Finland, it's ok because it's no use being here if I have to struggle to survive and if I'm not happy here. She also said that I can always try to enrol HUT next spring if I want to. And when I told her how I found Nina, my old classmate from jr. high via Facebook, and how she told me about the university in Uppsala (Sweden) she studies at and her friend who studies landscape architecture there and how there are no entrance exams, mum was like, "that sounds good, doesn't it! Sweden is such a lovely place anyway". Can you believe it? Mum took all of this incredibly well. I still feel a bit stunned.

Earlier I said to Oona that I'm about 55% sure that I'll move back to Finland. Now, after my conversation with mum, I'm about 75% sure about it. Thank you, whoever invented computer mics. Thank you MSN and your sometimes crappy connection that made it possible for me to discuss this with my mum. I don't think I hate computers after all.