Last night's talk with mum made me happier than anything in a while. In fact, I was so happy that I couldn't get sleep before 2am, even if I went to bed way earlier than that. Well, maybe an hour earlier but if you know me at all, you know that I usually fall asleep after 10 minutes because I'm so tired all the time. Last night I just couldn't stop thinking about how wonderful it'd be to be back home. It made me feel like Christmas was finally here. Yeah, my inner clock is a bit late.. But this Christmas didn't feel like something special. Though it was way better than Christmas '06, which I spent mourning my granny and not even remembering that it was Christmas.

Anyways. When I finally did fall asleep, I didn't get to sleep that long, because of this one pill that I had popped earlier that day. The pills are supposed to do miracles to one's metabolism and I've taken them before, but I didn't remember they were so.. effective. It'd be funny if they didn't make my stomach hurt so bad. So, I had to get up at 5 a.m. and after that I couldn't get sleep before 7 a.m. because I didn't feel tired at all. I did fall asleep again, though, and woke up at 11 a.m. just to realize that I was going to be late from uni - once again. I don't think I've ever managed to put on make-up that well in such a short time AND get dressed AND take Mini for a walk before leaving! True multi-tasking.

Even if I wanted to leave Belgrade immediately, I think it's better if I stay till the spring semester is over. Reasons for this are:
a) You never know if a miracle will happen and I will change my mind and fall in love with Belgrade and my studies.
b) I need to save money because in Finland I'll be poor. Here I get those 470 euros a month from Finland (and the average salary here is around 300 euros, so I've been living rather good for the past 18 months), and if I don't buy anything apart from necessary groceries (well, not much anyways - occasional pair of shoes doesn't count) and pay only the bills, I'll be able to save around 200 euros per month, which will be in total around 1200 euros. I have already 500 euros saved in the bank but they're a part of the money that I'll have to spend on the laptop that I'm going to have to buy in the near future (god knows when).
c) That luggage thing I mentioned yesterday

On to another things. My brother was driving dad's Peugeot today in the city when he got hit by a truck - if he had driven just slightly slower, the truck would've hit the front door from his side and I'm not sure what would've happened, you know, if he had come home to tell me about this. Now only the back door needs to be changed and the truck driver will pay for everything because it was his fault. Dad will be furious though when he finds out.. If I was him, I'd be just glad to have my son unharmed. But I know dad will have a fit of some sort, he can never take things easy.

It's kinda weird that this happened now because on last Monday, when it was the Serbian New Year's Day, neither of my brothers still hadn't come home by 11 a.m. and I was worried that something might've happened to them. Yes, even to the younger one with whom I don't get on that well. I guess blood runs thicker than water, no matter what happens.

Can't stop listening to Lauryn Hill.

"Let me be patient, let me be kind
Make me unselfish without being blind
Though I may suffer I'll envy it not
And endure what comes
Cause he's all that I got and
tell him..."

Simply amazing.