I have a vague memory of me complaining that there could be more activity on the male front.. Well, I've changed my mind. Definitely. At the moment I don't know what to do anymore, because there might be something about to go on with this one Serbian guy. I totally forgot about J (not good), who sent me a message yesterday (just after I had been girlishly euphoric about this Serbian guy), hinting that he misses me - and I thought the thing we had was over! And then that half Moroccan guy me and Oona went partying with (his friends were there too), HE sent me a message asking when I'm coming back to Finland because it'd be so cool to go partying together again. Turns out he's not in Finland in July but in US.. What a shame. And then there's that older friend of J's who's been sending me these really provocative messages, not afraid to hint about wanting to be handcuffed with me and that sort of thing. Uh oh. Seriously, I couldn't care less. I mean, I'm an old-fashioned girl and handcuffs aren't really my style. Well, not with him at least... I've got chills running down my spine right now. But I'm glad that even if that older guy would go boasting to J how he's been talking with me about this stuff (he can be like that, I was told), I know I haven't done anything wrong. Not ONCE have I hinted that I'd love to be handcuffed with him (because I don't, eww), though I am always polite and answer his messages in a hopefully adult-like style (my sense of humour is still working, good). One can always wish, right? And I'm improving, at least I don't feel like it's my duty to say yes to everyone anymore just because maybe according to some people I should be so god damn grateful to everyone who's interested in me. There will be other guys, and a girl should always keep her standards high. I mean, it's high or nothing.

I hate myself saying for this but I was life was easier. If I had to try to find something positive in my current problems, I'd probably say that at least I don't have much time to be homesick and at least this is a lot less stressing that uni stuff.

Something to listen to:
R. Kelly feat. T.I. & T-Pain - I'm a flirt (official remix 2007)