I'm hardly ever on the computer. It's not that I would've gotten myself a life or anything as amazing as that. The reason for my absence is dad, who's here 24/7 writing his books on the computer. I know that as his daughter I should be happy that he's here so much but I NEED TO BE ALONE SOMETIMES. My head cracks if I can't be alone for at least an hour a day. I just can't be with people 24/7, at least not the same ones. I hope that he'll finish the books soon and continue on the renovation of my granny's flat as soon as possible, please.

Anywho. I got tired of not having any new chick-lit books so I went downtown maybe a week ago and spent money on 4 books (in English, to keep up AND learn, of course). One of them isn't chick-lit. That's good, isn't it? The best one is 'The other side of the story' by Marian Keyes and the other two chick-lity books are buy authors that I've never heard of before, but I liked the covers so I bought them ('Handbags and halos' by Bernadette Strachan and 'The dog walker' by Leslie Schnur). I remember how me and Iiris once discussed how important the cover of a chick-lit book is - if it's horrible and tacky, the book is just as likely to be like that too. The fourth and most intelligent (not the only intelligent book in the lot, mind you) book is 'Birds without wings' by Louis de Bernières. I really liked 'Captain Corelli's Mandolin' and I heard this one's good too, so why not buy it? I've been meaning to buy it ever since I heard about it, it wasn't inexplicably expensive AND I got my study grants today, so..

A couple of days ago my mp3 player went nuts. I seriously thought this was it, the day it'd finally die (not that I was hoping it to do so). I tried to turn it on but all it did was show that the blue light while the screen was dead. I thought the problem would be solved if I just let it be and the battery would die, and then eventually I'd turn it on again and everything would be fine. Yeah right. The battery was pretty empty already and if it's full it should last 24 hours, but the damn device just kept showing the blue light after over 36 hours! I was getting pretty angry with it because I seriously can't buy a new mp3 player right now. It'd mean another 200 euros spent on nothing important, and I say "nothing important" because at the end of the day my life doesn't depend on being able to listen to music 24/7, no matter where I am. Hmm.. at least not when I should be saving money. The Nice Brother is running out of money and I should borrow him some for some time, and there's the laptop I've been meaning to buy ever since August.. Anyways, as I said, I was getting angry and nervous. I've mentioned the reboot hole before, right? And how I'm afraid to use it in case it'll wipe the whole memory, and how I don't have all of my 2200 songs on this computer and it'd be a disaster if I lost those songs for ever? Well, I gathered my courage last night and decided that there were no other options left. I took a needle and after a couple of deep breaths, sticked it in that tiny hole - the dull end, not the sharp one. Nothing happened. I sticked it there again, and nothing happened. I mean! For so many times I've been afraid to use it and when I finally DO it, nothing happens. I was getting pissed off with the crappy machine and just jammed the needle into the hole and then it happened - I heard the faintest click and suddenly the screen became alive. I almost started weeping. Though I think it might've been because of post-PMS too, not just because of the mp3 player.

I was really bored last weekend and my wardrobe was a mess, like really really big mess, can't-find-any-of-my-clothes kind of a mess, so I decided to do an inventory and find some old clothes that I haven't seen in a while by arranging the said wardrobe. I discovered that I have..

3 pairs of usable jeans (one of which are black)
1 pair of.. well, something like cargo pants (hardly ever use them)
3 zipper hoodies
4 normal hoodies
5 boleros
14 tops
18 tees
7 other tees I wear only wear when no one sees me or when I sleep
10 long-sleeved shirts
1 cardigan
1 white collar shirt
1 mini
5 medium-length skirts
2 long skirts
1 black dress (the one with the nice cleavage)

I need clothes. Especially pants. Jeans. Something nice. But I hate going shopping for jeans, it always makes me hate the size of my ass. It's really rather frustrating, trying on pair after pair jeans that don't fit. Having hips like this doesn't help either, not to mention thighs.. But nobody's perfect, right? I've got some good features too, like my hair, my face and my hands. You can always wear clothes that make an over-sized ass look better (or exercise, possibly) but what if you had man hands? That's much harder to fix. I'm trying to be optimistic and it usually works when I don't actually have to try on any jeans but when I'm in the shop.. God help us all. That's when I usually swear that it's a conspiracy against girls like me and spend my jeans money on books or shoes. Shoes are a girl's best friend, no matter how much you weigh you can always find amazing shoes (tight zipperless leather boots not included).

Something to listen to:
Eurythmics - I saved the world today